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It is one of th greatest commodities known to man and in my opinion, the top three most valuable. Along side of time, in my book, you would find love and family. But time is one asset that is never returned. It is only lost. You do not get to do things over. You do not, contrary to popular belief, get to start over; it is finished. You have only today to make better, change, to do, to live, and be happy. And while tomorrow may come, and yesterday is gone, today is the only definite.
I recently promised myself to make time for all the important people in my life. I also promised to make time to travel more and dedicate myself more to my writing. Time is not on our side. I am well aware and I am improving my use of it everyday.
There is a beautiful space in between religion and God, if you are willing to seek it out, that I have found to be quite nourishing. This space, this unprohibited, and all giving space, has provided me with much peace and comfort. This space has allowed me to be uninhibited within myself, thus creating room for me to grow in ways I never imagined possible. This space is outside of the walls of doctrine or organized participatory weekly gatherings. It goes beyond the "call" or the "answer" on Saturday or Sunday mornings, moves aside required hours of communication, and it invites all sources and paths to a higher being. This space is called spirituality.
If you say that to the wrong person and you may find yourself as the main attraction in a poltergeist-like ritual, creating bruises, both physically and spiritually, that may have never returned from. I found myself abused spiritually as a young girl and then found myself asking questions to which no one, no human, has been able to answer in my adulthood. So, I came here, to this space, without all the answers, but with enough answers that I felt comfortable enough to continue venturing on this path.
My Sundays aren't filled with music that proclaims one name over another and nor are they filled damning anyone whose Sunday is filled with such. They are spent in meditation, in peace and solitude, or spent volunteering. My days, my hopes, and my communes with the source, as I lovingly like to address this being, "The Creator", are not invalid since my departure from organized religion. My communication is more frequent and potent. So, yes, I do still talk to God.
In the shower, late at night, on my train rides, on behalf of other people, or simply in gratitude. I talk often about my day and goals. I ask frequently for revelation and guidance. I beg for continued love and favor. I communicate everyday if not a few times a day with God. My commune with the source, God, The Creator, or whatever name you would like to insert here is the foundation of my growth and my peace. It is not absent if a group or title is.
So yes, although I am not a member of anything, God has not been and is not far away. The Creator is with me.